Happy monthsary baby!

One day, I met an imperfect man who seemed perfect to me from time to time. He’s the best and the greatest when I need him to be. He holds my hand when we cross the street and he makes sure I stay on the safe side of the road. He argues with me, taunts me, frustrates me, but he also lets me win without telling me. He cradles me, when I need to be babied, he sings to me when I want him to, respects me when I need to feel big, and scolds me when I make a big mistake. He doesn’t always read me correctly, but he makes his best guess. His timing is sometimes off when calculating my moods, but when he finds that perfect moment, he always makes it one that I will never forget. He touches me when my heart is cold and cools me down when my head is hot. He hurts me but he always asks for forgiveness. He loses his temper because he’s human, but he always strives to become a better man. He falters and makes mistakes, but he rises above himself. He opens the door for me, although sometimes he forgets. He takes me to bars and also escorts me to the theatre. He always tells me the truth, but he’s also ready with his half-truths when that’s what I want to hear.  He makes me realize that I need him, but only up to half as much as he needs me. He makes me admit that I want him. He brings out the best and worst in me, but he sticks with me, always. And the most wonderful part is, I still fall for him, everyday. I met an imperfect man. He loves me and I love him wholeheartedly. It’s really amazing how he, who was once a stranger can suddenly without warning, mean the entire world to me. 

I crave you

in the most

innocent form

I crave to say

good night

and give you

forehead kisses

and to say

that I adore you

when you feel

at your worst.

I crave you

in ways

where I just

want to be 

next to you

and nothing

more or less

Letter to Carlo Fornilda

Letter to Carlo

“My heart longs to tell you how I feel towards you.
I wish I could tell you just how much you have touched me.
Just how much you have taught me.
Just how much you’ve make me happy.
Just how when you held me, my body tingled.
Just how when you would smile at me,
it touched my heart in such a way that no one else can ever come close to.
Just how the way you loved me makes me want to be a better person.
Just the way I want nothing more than to be able to hold you every day of my life and how that alone would be enough.
But, I can’t tell you all of these; the way I truly feel them,
because there aren’t enough words in the world that can truly explain just how much I love you.

It’s amazing, some people, they just say these small little things,
one sentence and it will change the way you feel about them in an instant.
Small words can hurt you so much or make you fall deeply in love forever.
It changes everything;
nothing between you is ever really the same again,
even if they don’t know it.”

I just wanted you to fuck me, but then I got greedy, I wanted you to love me. Bad decisions make good stories. And so, it happened.. It’s crazy because I don’t even know when you became so important to me. It’s like watching a snowstorm, you see the flakes falling but you don’t realize how they’re adding up. Then, suddenly your whole lawn is covered. All these things have added up, and you’re my snowstorm, baby. Thanks for loving me, despite my flaws. I know it’s hard, but don’t give up. I don’t know if I ever get you out of my system, not completely. I have this feeling that you’ll always be here. So, would you like to hang out with me, for your whole life? Please? 

I want to be the one you rely on, the one you want for the rest of your life. I want us to be the couple that others look up to because of our strong connection with one another.

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